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Anabelle
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Posted: Sun Apr 26th, 2009 04:20 pm |
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Hi Comet,
I too am new to all of this. I don't have a definite answer for you but I can tell you that for me, feelings have become much more real after the fall out, especially given the fact that I feel I may never see or speak to him again.
As I read all of your posts I find myself relating so much, having gone through something very similar. I got to know someone over the computer and telephone for a week, and later met and got to know him over 4 days. Everything happened so randomly but more strange was that he found me! He couldn't have been more of the person I was looking and I felt I had known him my whole life instantly. He said that he was instantly drawn to me and felt compelled to know me, it was like I read his mind. I felt the exact same way, like he was a mirror image, a replica to me, like someone had sent a carbon copy of me down to meet me. We finished each other sentences and when he told told about his unfortunate near death with cancer 4 years ago, he cried and so did I.
In the interim, I had opened up about some of the few medical issues I have, migraines, allergies, for which I take medication. I am also in the medical profession. We had a falling out on the 4th day about something I realize probably has alot more meaning than I give it. He asked if I was a "hypochondriac" always going to have health issues. It really took me by surprise because I felt like it came out of nowhere, it hurt me, upset me and I had never heard anything like that come out of his mouth. I cried, and I think perhaps I may have reacted a bit more than necessary but I wanted to continue to stay perfect in my soulmate's eyes and viceversa. I asked to go home, he dropped me off and during the day he said he wanted to talk about taking the relationship slower, that things were so good he was waiting for the other shoe to drop and then from that moment nothing....silence. So here I sit and wait, like you did. It's now been 1 full week.
I realize how hard it must have been for you because it's killing me. Everyday I ask the angels to bring him back to me. I feel he was taken away far too soon, it's not fair! Why bring him back to me from a past life only to take him away again so quickly??
All I can tell you Comet is that if you have someone you feel is your soulmate, there's no room for the ego, but at the same time, that person must also be in the place as you are. They must be ready.
Love shouldn't hurt so much! It's not perfect but the good should outweigh the bad and it should be easy most of the time. For me that person is the "icing on the cake of my already perfect life". They should make you want to be a better version of yourself. Funny enough, I recently broke up with a person I dated for 9 months who did just that. He taught me so much about opening my heart, and trusting again and taught me to be less guarded and defensive. He just wasn't ready to build something more and so I had to let him go. That was the first time I had ever broken up with a man who hadn't done anything really wrong. Funny saying it out loud. We were just on different roads.
All this to say, that I'm not sure I have exactly the answers for you. Your story helped me feel comfort in knowing I was not going through my current experience alone. Thank you!!
I hope perhaps some of my experiences shared with you may bring you comfort and guidance in your decisions. Remember to love yourself and to appreciate your beauty. And ask your angels to help guide you.
Take good care,
Anabelle
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Posted: Mon Apr 27th, 2009 06:56 am |
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Oh Anabelle! So much love and wisdom in your words. Need I say more? You got your heart right where it should be, woman! I am very happy for you.
When we truly become happy with ourselves... When we've come to that space where we could say I am complete and happy and loved and perfect... That's when love comes in... Perfect time, perfect place, perfect reasons.
My heart soars with yours, Anabelle! I wish you all the happiness you deserve!
Love, light, life and laughter always!
Faye
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Anabelle
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Posted: Mon Apr 27th, 2009 02:31 pm |
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Thanks so much Faye for your kind words. To be honest, I feel like a child taking its first steps right now especially, when I listen to all of you. Something like a coming into my own I guess you could say. Some lessons I have learned through some of my recent experiences but I know I still have so much yet to learn. I find myself growing, evolving everyday. I try as best I can to embrace each new experience with an open heart and mind and have faith that at this time I am exactly where I meant to be. I find if I surround myself with positive energy and reinforce self-love, I am able to regain a sense of peace and calm in my life. I don't have the handbook for it, I'm so new to all of this, it's you that are so wise! I'm here to learn! But thank you again so humbly!
Anabelle
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dana64
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Posted: Mon Apr 27th, 2009 02:52 pm |
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Anabelle you are very smart and wise. You have a wonderful sense and understanding and are open to change and love yourself. I find that I take everyday and learn from each experience...Thank you so much for joining the forum and I enjoy your post..
Blessings Dana
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Posted: Mon Apr 27th, 2009 07:24 pm |
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Well, welcome Anabelle !
Absolutely you are coming into your own! So very often a new person comes here (as did I ) and it is because they were guided....so much information and guidance passes through this site all the time...so, your guides and angels and higher self have sent you here to get you information to 'get the ball rolling' so to speak.
when ever in doubt ...ask...and they will help you find your answers....and if you find you are still confused ask them to be clear. I don't know how much you know about 'dream' states...and the fact that we receive a 'lot' of our information then.....but also during meditation. before I meditate I pray and then I meditate and listen...and the hardest part of that process was the waiting for things to come to me and having the patience to wait it out....mind chatter is a real issue for me.....but, and I promise, IF you hang in there you will see a change come over the meditation process........Meditation is very important....even if you only have 15 minutes a day to just sit in quiet. that is better than not sitting at all........It is key to our connection to spirit and Divine...and also our guides and angels use this 'quiet' time to relay messages to us as well as God. as I said...patience is key! and taking the time to do it daily.
You 'are' exactly where you need to be right now in your life....and evidently right now is the time for you to take this journey to the next level....so, ask them 'how' you should proceed......what sort of 'spiritual' interests do you have? Types of 'spiritual' books you like the most? what is nagging at your 'gut' to learn about? these things that 'nag' at our mind are the ones we need to put before the rest....those are the ones which should come first...they are guiding you to do 'that' one....probably because this topic will flow you into the next and then the next again. There is a Universe of information out there for us all.....and I too get so anxious about learning it all .....at once...I just want it all NOW....I have no patience as you can see! LOL
anyway....again...welcome.......so very nice to meet you!
blessings..dee
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Posted: Tue Apr 28th, 2009 04:21 am |
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Thank you to you Dana and also to you Dee for making me feel so welcome and supported. It is so nice to meet both of you. I appreciate the information you've passed on and will definitely start to incorporate meditation on a more regular basis. I haven't been doing much meditating in the traditional sense. It's funny, I'm not sure what you would call it but I often take what I call quiet time, especially in the mornings as I shower and I do alot of self-talk. I can have whole conversations sometimes thinking out issues or working out emotions. Probably sounds crazy but I can be very introspective that way. I have not really done it in an answer seeking way but I am open to trying.
The only angel speak experience I've had was a journal writing session once. It was so neat. I've tried to listen for a message but sometimes I think I hear something but I'm always afraid it's only something I want to hear. I'm sure it will come. Your advice is well received.
Thank you again! You've brought sunshine to my day.
Anabelle
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