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arkansaskat
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Posted: Fri Oct 23rd, 2009 08:49 pm |
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Hi, I'm Kat, I just stumbled onto this website while I was surfing the web looking for information about incarnated angels. Actually, I have been searching for advice for incarnated angels as I seem to have hit a rough spot in my own personal and spiritual path. I was not able to find any new advice specifically for incarnated angels but I did find this website.
I only recently discovered the entire concept of incarnated angels. Having been raised with a religion that did not acknowlege the concept of earth angels I was unaware that there was an explanation for what I am. It has been a relief to find out what I am although it is a little scary for me as well.
Today, I am not feeling my usual happy self. As I said above it seems I have hit a rough patch in my life and I am currently struggling with what feels like overwhelming internal struggles.. simply put.. my heart has been recently broken which seems to be the one thing I have the most trouble with in this life. I wonder if I should wait until I feel more myself to post my first post here, but I found this place today, so...
Below I am posting part of a story I wrote about being an incarnated angel.. and this story partially explains why I believe that this is what I am.
I have known I was different ever since I noticed that I wasn't alone on this earth. I was different. I am different.
I can not meet anyone and not see the inner spark of true goodness, I can not seem to see any badness in anyone. I can not stop loving, and I can not meet anyone for more than 10 minutes and not feel a deep caring for them. (MY ex husband used to tell people that it would do him no good to make a million dollars because I would give it away as fast as he made it... true... he also used to say that if Ted Bundy knocked on our door I would have a muffin and a cup of coffee down his throat before he could slit mine... also true.) I am an extremely caring person, empathetic to point of causing pain to myself, and have been accused of being kind to a fault. Another gem from my X was when he was informing me that he would no longer be married to me, he said, "You'r so good that you make me feel evil in comparison." (I was mad at the time so I told him that if the shoe fits, kick yourself with it!") I do have a temper but my fuse is incredibly long. I am unable to hold a grudge no matter how deserving and will forgive anyone for anything the second I see or hear them again. This includes people who have slept with my husband, stolen my most valued jewelry, beaten or hurt me, anything. I am unable to hate, point blank, unable.
I have been protected throughout my life in some of the most dangerous situations, I live rather well for someone who makes far less than the poverty level, and I do have one full blown, indisputable miracle that the Lord blessed me with, and many many more little ones.
My weight goes up and down, mostly up and am considered pretty. I have never been without suiters and been engaged 12 times, (married once, lived with many.)
I am not in a career that would be considered a professional helper yet I help anyone and everyone that I can in any situation. I am miserable with my profession and believe that is because it is not help/heal oriented. I have the need to be creative, to draw, paint, write, and create. I have not done this in over 20 years. I am going to pick up these things that I put aside many years ago soon, my youngest child is 19 and it is time for a new life, well, almost. I suppose that is also part of what I am wrestling with at this point in time, what do I do next, what is my mission?
I have always known that I had some type of power, yet it only works without biting me in the butt if it is for the higher purpose of others as well as myself. My karma is so high strung that I will get zapped almost instantly for even thinking a nasty thought that most people can act out all the time. I have always thought that I am held to a higher standard than most because I have received so many gifts. Now I realize that I am just from a different place where these thoughts go against my very nature. I have always known things that many consider to be profound or wise but I was born with that knowledge. Sometimes I just know things, I have a natural ability for herbal healing and herbal mixtures, I am able to read the Tarot. I have seen and felt spirits my entire life.
I am so grateful to understand that I am not simply a "freak of nature", as this is what I have thought for my entire life. It is wonderful to know that there are others like me somewhere and that my oddness is a blessing for myself and for all that I can help.
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Posted: Fri Oct 23rd, 2009 09:26 pm |
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Welcome Kat,
well, that was a mouthful wasn't it????
I'm afraid I am not the one who can help you with this 'finding' yourself...but, I do think maybe getting into Doreen Virtues forum's may be a help to you.......Have you ever had an angel card reading done? My guess is there is where you would find 'some' answers...."This" website does do angel readings and Thomas is "exceptionally" good at it! Many in this forum have had readings done by him in the past and have raved about him and the readings........I don't feel any of us in here are able to answer your questions about 'being' an angel....I've not done enough studying about 'incarnate' angels....we would all love to think we are...but in reality I think maybe those who are 'know' it...and don't question it???? I don't know, like I said...I have no idea who or how you would know....I do think maybe those who are know it at a very young age? see, I know nothing.....I honestly do think Doreen and her people would be able to give you the 'correct' answer....
I can relate to some of your 'life' things...but I know I'm not an angel...I've been 'saved' in some pretty dangerous situations as well...but it was because my guardians' kept me safe...it wasn't my time yet....the only way they 'will' step in without being asked is if 'it' is a dire situation.
I feel this is a time for you to awaken the spiritual side of things...I dont' know if you pray, or meditate, or work with your angels or guides....these are all steps to 'opening' to God and the angelic realm......to 'see' them, 'feel' them touch you....bringing them into your life on a daily basis...Both God and angels....we hear a lot of talk about angels...but we didn't come from them...we came from God...and He is the one to whom we must learn from and turn to, in addition to our angels...Angels aren't the be all and end all of who we are and why we are here....they are the guides given to us by God...that is something they wish everyone to understand. Throughout this journey of mine I have turned to God during meditation and when going into meditation I ask him questions...and I do get answers...sometimes right then and there and sometimes it's shortly after...as in a day or so......but, I always get one! If you pray and ask Him things from your heart and he knows our sincerity, our needs etc...He 'will' hear you and help you....we don't always get what we ask for ,,,but we will get what he knows we need at that time. He is the one source who can answer your questions...and if you are in fact an incarnate angel...you will get the answers...have faith in him and trust in him. You will find out your truth...Maybe a reading is a very good idea?
I do honestly feel Doreen can and will give you a lot of help with finding out if you are an angel...I'm sure it is a topic she has lots of knowledge about.......Anyone out there have a book by Doreen which speaks about Incarnate Angels?????? I'm sure someone in here does and they will let you know...you can check her website and I'm sure she 'has' books that will help you as well.........Have you ever read any of her work? Or anyone else who writes about angels....I think Kimberly Marooney does......Any one out there know if she is???? I think she does...I think I got the name right???
SO, sorry, I'm not full of answers for you , but, people in here will get back to you...
In regards to your wanting to help with 'healing' etc....Do you do Reiki? or any other modality? maybe you would be better off learning those types of healing? I think it's time you started to seek and learn these ways to help people? Sometimes our mission isn't to do 'major' things...sometimes we are here to be 'great' parents or a great sister or a great spouse...or just as you are now....great at helping people. Those are 'very' important qualities to have...and even if you help only ONE person in your life, to do something for them or say something TO them that could change their whole life...that is enough, in God's eyes...Being the one who exudes love for humanity is a huge quality to have in a person.....and sometimes that is enough...
I do get a feeling though, that you are best with children? and maybe animals?
well, some others will jump in here and give you much more info on Doreen Virtues work...but, check out her web site......If anyone has an answer for you it would be her! (I'm surprised you don't know her already?...or do you?)
Good Luck and many blessings....dee
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