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ljgosnell
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Posted: Sat Oct 25th, 2008 03:25 am |
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I know I have a spiritual purpose for my life here on this earth and time of living in my physical body, but after tremendous change and loss in 2007 that bled into 2008, I am applying for SSD for I am struggling to function on a daily basis. I have had Major depression, which runs on my Father's side of the family(whom most are dead now) for 20+ years and fibromyalgia for 6 years. I have huge capacity to really hear other's pain and feel it and have been a successful counselor/healer except these last year and one half-2 yrs. I am learning to reach out for help and ask for what I need. Very difficult since I was always the "helper" and now find myself as the "helpee"- anyway, I am glad I found this website and have paid for a 1/2 hr. reading, so am sending white light and love and blessings to all and need the same for myself- Thank-you.... Ljgosnell
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Posted: Sat Oct 25th, 2008 04:58 am |
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ljgosnell, you were led here by your angels as we all were.....I would like to welcome yoou to the forum....I also have fybromyalgia....I understand very well where you are coming from on being the one to ask for help....When you have been a doer and independent it is very hard to ask or just to let others do for you....That was very hard for me...Also learning to do things in moderation and changing the ways I was use to doing all my life....I have learned to accept help I still push myself sometimes but everything happens for a reason...I pray to God and ask angels for help daily...My faith has grow and I have changed for the best...
Looking forward to learning more about you....
Blessings Dana
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Ellie
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Posted: Sat Oct 25th, 2008 02:24 pm |
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Dear ljgosnell,
My name is Ellie and I want to say welcome to the group.I myself am on ssd.I have maniac depression and post traumatic stress because of a very abusive marriage.Some people wait years.My case was fairly easy to resolve.I know about the struggles every day.Most of us that are going through this stuff have a great capacity to hear and feel others pain.I am so like that and its cost me alot but I wont change.It was really hard for me to ask for help.Even now things get over whelming and I want to hide.I will pray for you.You will find alot of love and spritual giving here.
Godbless
Ellie
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Posted: Sat Oct 25th, 2008 10:21 pm |
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welcome ljgosnell
I hope you find some helpful words in this forum. The readings given here are wonderful...They are very good at it!!!!!!
Hang in there....things are going to get better in the next few months. Everything will fall into place and you can at least relax a bit....I know depression....you will get some solace from the medications....and doing some simple relaxation things could help as well....guided meditations for relaxation is always a good way to start....don't put any pressures on yourself about anything!!!! nothing......just get through your day and don't worry about anyone else. I feel strongly that this won't be forever for you.....so, seek guidance...hang in there....do what you can to relax YOU.
but know we are always here for prayers and can send reiki as well?
If nothing else we are always here to listen and share....don't be a stranger....keep us posted on how you are doing ....
much love Dee
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ljgosnell
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Posted: Sun Oct 26th, 2008 03:32 am |
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Thank you sooooooo much for your love, understanding and support, I think I found a 2nd Home!!! I feel encouraged and have renewed hope because of you and the two other members that commented on my post. Bless all of you, will check in soon, Love to you my sisters, Lisa (ljgosnell)
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Posted: Sun Oct 26th, 2008 05:25 am |
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| Lisa I believe that you have found your home....I know you are going to enjoy it here I have learned so much...It helps to have others to chat with...Have a wonderful evening...Blessings dana
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Posted: Sun Oct 26th, 2008 03:50 pm |
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you are so welcome Lisa..........we are very happy you are here....and hope you decide to stay for a long time!
Please jump in anytime and join the comments
peace to you..dee
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Posted: Mon Oct 27th, 2008 12:06 am |
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| Welcome;;I'm so glad you're here. I ,too, feel it is my second home. People here have been so loving and encouraging. I like you'll find someone always here to listen. You're meant to be here.
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atomic33
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Posted: Mon Oct 27th, 2008 09:25 am |
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| hello and welcome xxxxxxxxx
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Posted: Mon Oct 27th, 2008 11:44 pm |
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I am learning to reach out for help and ask for what I need. Very difficult since I was always the "helper" and now find myself as the "helpee"-
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Hello ljgo.. I can identify with the above statement very well. Life change is such ways you go from top to bottom very quickly.
It's good that you keep some love with you while your down. It will help you back up.
I had help from a new friend, wow she cooked megood food that was so nice.
I was able to accept that help a while a go.
I learn peoples help does heal u.
I pray for u.
with love juliaLast edited on Mon Oct 27th, 2008 11:48 pm by Raylaj
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ljgosnell
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Posted: Tue Oct 28th, 2008 02:48 am |
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| Thank-you everyone from all places that have blogged in and commentrd on my prayer/healing request. You are all a drop of real love from the human race in which I too belong to. I have a male friend who is healing from some similar , but different problems/blocks in his life,although I drove up here in Aug.08, I want to drive home to my Apt. that I am still paying for even though I am temporarily in Minneapolis living or beter described...exsisting. I have a hard time even getting out of bed and although I am under doctor's care, I don't know if I even want to get better-I have dealt with my depression for over 30 years and now with the fibromyalgia, I just can't seem to pull myself out of it this time. I think of suicide often and then hate myself for the thought and tell myself "quit feeling sorry for yourself and get your act together!" Anyway I know I must have angels around me and have some purpose for this life or I would not be alive. My last attempt didn't work and I lived and the doctors couldn't explain why(I was still alive) anyway-is a stressful time in this world with elections and know things are changing-I would prefer to be gone-a miracle or death is my deepest desire. Bless all of you...Lisa
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Posted: Tue Oct 28th, 2008 02:53 am |
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I'm sending love and healing to you, dear. Don't give up...you are here for a reason..
You have a vast group of angels all around you...cheering you on...
I keep getting the message...."Be of Good Cheer."
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Posted: Tue Oct 28th, 2008 12:53 pm |
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Dearest Lisa
there are a few of us here who have Fibromyalgia as well.....have had the whole spectrum of the pain and the desire to leave this world...I came close myself at one time....not wanting to be here anymore...at all...that is when I really really really gave it to God and begged for my life to turn around.....I met a good Dr. he's still a part of my life and continues to work with me and the pain......About a year and half ago I stopped taking the Zoloft on my own.....and felt 'stronger' than I ever thought I would ever be.....
please know Lisa that you WERE guided here.....to meet me and some others with your same dilema....I'm sure of it!
I started healing when I became involved in Reiki......not to work with others...but hoping it would help my pain level..You can imagine what a miracle it has been for me to stop the depression meds........It's wonderful.....and I AM SO STRONG!!! I didn't do it alone......I had SO much help daily with my angels and God and guides etc.......the reiki can help you......I'm wondering why you were led to Minneapolis? My son moved back here after graduating Macalester College he stayed there for 10 years.....came back here...changed his life and is now such a great psyche nurse in Boston.......you 'can' get better hon....I promise you can........and I know you were guided here to do just that.
I'm being 'told' that if you were to ever go thru with the 'ending' of your life it would only come back in your next life threefold....so, it won't get better hon...it will only get worse? but you already know that....
I can help with the gift of Reiki....please see if there are any practitioners in your area.....any sort of spiritual areas where you can turn...I'm sure there are in the twin cities....You didn't succeed because you weren't meant to......
please let us help you?
Peace and Love for you Lisa
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Posted: Fri Oct 31st, 2008 12:26 am |
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Lisa,
I've had depression for a lot of years, so I know the hell it is. It was a long road out of depression, but I did find a road out. If there was a road for me, then there's one for you too. I've also had CFS for over twenty years. I know how depression and chronic illness can play into each other, each making the other that much worse. After a great many years of CFS with severe symptoms, recovery is finally happening for me. Just because you've had an illness for a long time doesn't mean you will have it forever, so take heart. I believe you are here for a reason and that you will travel this road toward healing, leave that blanket of darkness behind and begin to learn what is wonderful life. I existed for a lot of years too. When you begin to climb you will see the difference. The view is breathtaking. Having been in the valley the peaks will be that much better. Having had the bad, the good will be that much sweeter. It is absolutely amazing. I promise you.
If there's one thing you have learned it's endurance. And hope when it all seems hopeless. That's where you start. Welcome to the journey.
RedBird
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